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Yesterday and Today
June 4, 2006
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Yesterday I was searching a piece of paper in a box, which was full of paper, letters, notes, short writing (speaking of finding a niddle in a hay stack). I searched thoroughly once and twice, and the piece of paper that I was looking for was still nowhere to be found. Then I had to group the box of paper in hoping to find it. As I was grouping, I began to scan throught some of personal letters from people and friends in the past — their feelings, their thoughts on life, and events in their lives — so many memories that seemed to be hidden and nearly forgotten, yet recorded on papers. Many of them are have been dear to me, and I still miss them. In addition, there were a number of short writings, journals, poems, and even prays that I wrote/rocorded in the period of many years. It was like looking at my life under microscope to carefully examinate the "I", KKai, at the given moments and time. In fact, I was both impressed and unsatisfied concerning myself.
Today I think it will be appropriate to write to some of the people whom I still care deeply and have not contacted for many years asking them if they are well (and alive) and tell them that here is my new address by which they can once again get hold of me. Moreover, when I think about my past writings, I am surprised by the "I" in the past and know that at each given moment I am always unable to imagine the "I" whom I may become in the future. That is how limited and narrow minded I am. However, the current "I" is always building upon the past KKai(s), no matter how immature he or they (if you talk about all KKai’s in different time and space) might be.
The KKai yesterday and today.
PS: I think soon I will start one Chinese blog to share some of my ideas, poems in the past and of course the future.