A few days ago, I had an unique "dreaming experience" as I slept. The dream(s) itself was/were not special, but the way it went was quite … hmm … Sorry, I really don’t have a word to describe it now. However, as I tell you the dream(s), you may find it/them unique. Here is how my dream started.
In the beginning, I was setting in a couch, and to my left, there was an end table. On the top of the end table, a lamp shone with yellow light softly, warmly spreading on the table, on the couch, on my skin, and in the room. An audio was on the end table too and was playing a worship song repeatedly, probably a song from Robin Mark’s CD, "Revival in Belfast". (Maybe someone knows the CD. I think it is a great CD.) I was closing my eyes periodly and was enjoying everything and every moment there – the music, the comfortable couch, the warm light, the peaceful feelings, the whole environment, or even the present of God transferred by the song from the CD.
Then the setting changed as if a TV channel was switched. The next thing I knew was that I was walking in a building hall and rushing to a classroom. In my mind, I knew I was going to have three final exams on the same day. This was the first final exam, and I was heading straight to the first final exam. (If you were a college student and had three final exams on the same day, it meant that you were in trouble. XD) Surprisedly I was extremely calm and was talking to myself, “Okay, this is the first one. You got to do it. You are going to do it, and you can do it, KKai.” I had become "army-like" — tense, but at the same time steady, focused, well-trained and well-disciplined.
As I rushed to the classroom for the first final exam, I heard the worship song in the background, and the song still brought every good sense from the previous "couch scene" to me. It appeared two scenes merged. That is, two dreams were going on at the same time, and I existed in two dreams, two different worlds. On one side, I was rushing to take final exams. Taking three final exams did appear to be very real — stressful and/or even scary. On the other side, the serenity, the song surrounded me, and I submerged in the serenity, the peace, and the present of God of the previous scene — so real, so tengible.
What surprised me was when I took the first exam with absolute calm and confidence, and without any pressure and hesitation again in an army-like fashion. (I think I was the first one to finish my exam.) When I left the classroom, I did not even look back. Instead I headed straight to the second final exam and said to myself, "Okay, next one. You can do it, so let’s do the second exam. Let’s get it done." (I don’t know why I used the phrase, let "us".)
However, when I entered the second classroom, I suddenly realized my instructor was not my instructor, and my classmates were not my classmates. In my dream, I just knew. Even though I did not know anybody in the classroom of the first exam [neither the instructor nor classmates], I did not have that feeling. Then the final exam began, and all the students were doing their exams except me. I was asking students around for schedule of the final exams while the instructor was staring at me with unfriendly eyes as if I was trying to helps his/her students to cheat. "Somebody, all I need is a schedule book," said I in my heart.
After a while and some sweat, I finally got a schedule and learned that I only had two final exams. Of course, I felt somewhat released, and then walked out of that classroom to my third final exam. As I stepped out the classrom, I wake up. Slowly I opened my eyes, I could still heard the song and enjoyed it. I thought someone was playing the song in the house, so I searched the source of the song. Then the sound disappeared, and there was a silence. Then I realized the source of the sound was in my head. Beside the unique dual-dream, the dream and the reality seemed to merge together somehow.
I think it is a good picture of what a Christian life should be. We live in both physical and spiritual worlds. In this physical world, we live and have difficulties, trials, tribulations, but in the spirit world, we live in worship, in prayer, in the present of God. Two worlds go on at the same time. One is temporal. The other is eternal. Which one are you more aware of?
(Btw, I changed the music, and I hope you will like it.)