— the cruel, but "common" ME
If anyone still remembered, a little more than one month ago (8/20), one of my younger brothers got married. When it comes to emotional events in the family, it seems that I am always slow to have “appropriate” emotional responses. And on that day there was no exception.
The girl to whom my brother married is a family friend, and in fact, we know her quite well. Her parents and my parents were good friends before “we”, all the children in both families, were born. Moreover, we already treated her as a family member before she and my brother started seeing/dating each other. I think it could be the reason that leads me to a sense of no change, no difference up to this very day.
However, it would be a lie to say that I was totally emotionally dead because two things happened around me on that day, which caused quite some disturbance emotionally. The first event took place after the wedding ceremony. A lady called her (now my brother’s wife) Mrs. “my family name”, and I was shocked for a moment. I never kenw that hearing that could bring me back to the “reality” out of all the seemingly “joyful non-sense”. (Sorry for the informality) I now begin to wonder whether or not it could be even more shocking if I were the bridge and were getting married. Or perhaps, there is no need to wonder, for it is a certain that it will be many times more shocking. :D
The other one happened after all the events, photo taking, dinner, …, finished. We were about to head back to Sacramento, the city where we lived. As we were waiting to head home, I was talking to some girls, and obviously they were eagerly sharing their feelings about the wedding, of course. One japanese girl suddenly said today she actually cried during the wedding ceremony. I was like, “What!! Are you nuts?” However before I had something nice to say, another girl said she also cried during the process. I secretly said, “Oh, crap! Now I have to put up with this.”
Yet surprisingly with an innocent, calm look, I asked, “Really?” — a much nicer response without lavishing all my negative opinions concerning marriage on those “emotional creatures”. “Yeah,” they replied and continued on and on describing their emotional “journey” of the day.
Luckily the darkness of the night concealed my uneasy facial expression. The moon in the sky showed it was probably full moon yesterday as if the best of that relationship between the married couples was in the yesterday. As the end of the day neared, I sighed and then merged into the night.
(To be contined …)